I just want Me back...

Ah yes, another couple of weeks and no post, no knitting, nada.  I'm a loser...

Truthfully, I wasn't feeling all that great with about a week's worth of low-grade temps and vertigo, AKA, labrynthitis.  Doesn't that sound all magical and mystical??  It's not.  It sucks.  And to top it off, the medicine that helps with the whole room-spinning thing made me very sleepy, so in a world where I can't afford to be more tired than I already am, I couldn't take the medicine.  Thus, I continued to feel like crap, all while trying to run my normal life.

Things are better now, much more steady at least, but I yearn to feel like my old self, the one that used to have energy and charisma and was able to keep all the balls in the air (or at least knit them into something cool)...  Where did that girl go?  Some days I don't even recognize the person staring back at me in the mirror.

You know, we all grow up, become adults, start families, have careers, etc., because it all falls into the timelines we call our lives.  Somewhere along the way though, it's very possible to lose your sense of self to the point where you can't remember the person you used to be before all this responsibility smacked you in the face.  Well I'd like to have the old me back, thank you very much, no matter how selfish that may seem.  Is there a way to do this?

I hope to find out... and find her.

Comments

[Jan B.]

Oh my gosh! I spent about 8 full weeks last fall suffering with horrid vertigo. There was never any diagnosis made, but I have my theories. At any rate, I can't EVEN imagine trying to deal with that while raising two young children! I couldn't get a dang thing done, and I have two teens! As to feeling like yourself again, yes. You will. But not for a while. It's a gradual process once your children reach an age where they are not quite so dependent, at least not to the point where you have to do everything for them. It took me perhaps two years from the time they turned 7 or 8 to the point where I felt I could do things for ME again. I hope you find that gal again!!

[Beth Peck]

I don't have an answer for you but wanted to let you know you are not alone in wanting to feel like YOU again!